Thursday, March 23, 2006

I’m a Nice Person and the Occasional Bitch

Sometimes I don't make sense to myself. Hell, a lot of the time I don't make sense to myself.

I was brought to tears reading about one person's reaction to a homeless man, the kindness she showed. I make it a point every day to do something random nice, I try hard to keep to that. Meanness makes me sick and petty mean people make me want to kick them.

Yet last night I was shown a picture of a woman I loathe. The only person I think I truly hate. And this picture brought me more glee than I should be admitting to. Why? Because the person in the picture was huge. Huge. Not pleasantly plump, not BBW, just HUGE. Huge and beastly looking, almost to the point where there was no face at all and hips that spread across the entire photo.

And it made me feel warm and tingly inside. This person at one point not too long ago was a vain, petty nasty human being who, for no reason other than her own insecurity, launched a smear campaign against me that did some damage. She is the type of person who would make fun of the size of others to make herself feel better. She is an arrogant nasty HATEFUL person and to see that picture was rewarding. It was ... karma.

I believe in Karma, I believe in it even more now. That picture said to me that her perfect little world she obtained by ultimatums, threats and bribery is anything but perfect. Life is obviously giving her a hard time as she eats small nations to compensate. That's what fills me with glee. To see such a nasty hateful person getting the karma they deserve makes me feel validated.

Then the Pollyanna in me feels bad for taking glee in this. I don't make sense to myself, I guess I don't make sense to anyone sometimes.

Karma. I believe.

1. I believe in karma, but I also think… that on the very rare occasion… such as feeling bad after looking at that photo? It’s ok to ignore as best you can. Why should you feel bad? If you can manage to only feel ‘warm and tingly’ and not be deliberately mean about it without reason (though it seems you had reason...) or any such… then your still a better person than her

   Seraphim  on  03/24  at  02:32 AM

2. A sprinkle of shadenfraude is a good thing.  It even makes coffee taste even better.

   Meathe  on  03/24  at  11:24 AM

3. Wow! I’m touched that you were so touched. That’s gotta be a big
   circle of good karma, dontcha think?

   Shellz  on  03/24  at  11:52 AM

4. I don’t think its really a bad thing, getting some glee from it. A) You didn’t do anything to the person, B) They did it to themselves, and C) There should always be a C when there is an A and B.

   You also didn’t go out of your way to show it to the world, you could have easily done that.

   Karma is a powerful thing in the world. ITs the mugger who gets hit by a car as he tries to get away, or the paper cut when you’re being mean.

   Its ok to grin happy when someone who deserves it gets smacked by Karma.

   Coyote  on  03/24  at  12:36 PM

5. Seraphim - Thank you for that, you definitely made sense.

   Meathe - shadenfraude has to be one of the best words ever.  Ever.

   Shellz - You can tell from your writing you’re one of the nice ones.  Heh, big circle indeed.  Like crop circle big.

   Coyote - 2 comments in 2 days?  Woo!  I love the mugger and paper cut analogy, thanks for pointing those out to me.

   I feel better about my glee.

   WebKittyn  on  03/24  at  04:27 PM

6. I’m a nice person.

   Well, maybe not a nice person, but I’m not a mean person.  Its just
   that in this world where I give MUCH more nice out than I receive in
   return I think I’m running out of nice reserves.

   I never take glee in obesity though, no matter how much I hate the
   person.  I think its because I’m one of the big ones.  My BMI is in
   the “morbidly obese” range.  I’m not huge to the
   proportions that you described, but if I dont stop growing I could be
   one day.

   Nope, no glee in large people, just fear.

   YummY!  on  03/24  at  07:06 PM

7. YummY, you are a nice person.

   I’m not the type to make fun of weight either, I don’t like petty and mean.  It just seemed fitting in this case as I’ve heard this person make cruel and stupid comments about other people with weight issues.  Karmic revenge.

   Large people are just people with more to them.  If the person is healthy and large then I find them no less attractive than the thin person.  Most of the guys I’ve gone for have been big, some realllllly big.

   I just don’t deal well with nasty hypocrites.

   WebKittyn  on  03/24  at  07:24 PM
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